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      <title>War of Hearts</title>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[Song by Ruelle, Yume! TsumuYane&#xA;CW: angst, drabble&#xA;&#xA;&#34;The last time I let you go, a lot of people died.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;The man in a fined suit strides over to the woman holding a blood-covered sword. His strides were purposeful even in a dark and hidden room. The memories of fire and screams tore through his mind and his found family got dragged into flames. Never again. &#34;You&#39;re not walking out of this one, Ayane.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;!--more--&#xA;&#xA;The woman laughed, the sound became a sharp contrast to the man&#39;s heart. &#34;Hm, shame. And here I thought you&#39;d enjoy my show.&#34; She looked at the sword and pointed it towards his chest &#34;How else was I supposed to get your attention? ...Mr. Tsukioka&#34;&#xA;&#xA;This wasn&#39;t what the man intended. He didn&#39;t assume that the woman he loves will transform into an assassin of greed.&#xA;&#xA;---&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Wait- you&#39;re a prince? And an assassin?! We&#39;ve been on three dates and you&#39;ve not bothered to tell me until then?&#34; She asked eye-widened and her lover nodded in a shy state &#34;Why?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;It&#39;s very simple, my princess.&#34; He approached her and held her hand which made the princess&#39; heart skip a beat. &#34;I want you to be my Queen.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;---&#xA;&#xA;&#34;What? Wait a minute, Ayane, you would ask me to betray my crown and my country?&#34; The crowned prince looks with a worried face at the woman on her knees and tears on her cheeks. &#34;Please! I can give you anything you want. Whatever you want right now, I can double it. You can have more land, fame, wealth, anything-&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;-No, your Highness!&#34; Tsumugi said in a raised voice. The princess looked up. He went down and held her hand, already crying about how his lover is acting. &#34;Please, don&#39;t bargain with me. I am to be king someday. We have ended our relationship a long time ago and my days of assassinating finished. I will not kill him as he is also my friend.&#34; Tsumugi held on to Ayane&#39;s face as she sobs more.&#xA;&#xA;They were both referring to Prince Chigasaki, the princess who will be marrying. They got arranged by her mother when they were young and Ayane didn&#39;t know about it until she was 18. &#34;I accepted your past and present wholeheartedly.&#34; Tsumugi presses his lips together and refuses &#34;But I don&#39;t want you to get involved in something dangerous. Please understand.&#34; He leaned to her for a hug and she responded. But then Ayane hears a chuckle and a light stroke on her hair.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;But honestly, Ayane, would you trust someone who turned their back on their home- their country for a long time- in secret for selfish gain?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;The princess immediately pushed him away. He has the smug look that he shows whenever he intends to kill or overpower his enemies. &#34;What?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Who is to say they wouldn&#39;t betray you for someone better the first time they got?&#34; He says as he remembers the time the prince showed him a picture that he didn&#39;t know. It was Prince Itaru and Ayane together in the secret part of the forest. Ayane stood up immediately and backed away &#34;No, you&#39;re mistaken! He only-&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;He only what? Kissed you? Philandered with you? Do you think I wouldn&#39;t know why you killed him and some of his people? My darling, your reason for the murder is quite simple.&#34; Tsumugi walked to his side counter and pulled something from the drawer. &#34;The door is open, Ayane. It&#39;s either you leave or die. Your choice.&#34; She looked at the dagger on his hand in fear. She looked for the doorknob and opened it, scurrying away.&#xA;&#xA;The crowned prince sighed as he puts down the dagger after the princess left. &#34;I&#39;m sorry, Ayane.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;After a few months, news spread throughout every kingdom. There are still no answers for the thousands of mysterious murders located different villages. It said that the killer named &#39;Bonnie&#39; is responsible but the police haven&#39;t found any evidence.&#xA;&#xA;---&#xA;&#xA;&#34;The kind of name sounds new when it comes from your mouth,&#34; Tsumugi responded. She laughed again but he only smiled at her &#34;And I say you&#39;ve got my attention very well, former princess. You&#39;ve done a job well done in reducing the population in my country.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;You say it&#39;s your country, but you got banned from the kingdom. I didn&#39;t expect that you would guess the killer in a short time.&#34; She scoffs &#34;Well, it had to be done. Not only did I gain your attention, but I also helped you with your problem.&#34; Ayane responded. &#xA;&#xA;Tsumugi shifted the sword away and went near the woman. Ayane can feel his breath when she looked at him and felt her hair tucked behind the ear. She blushes at the action and he laughed the way his lover had become savage but still a little soft for him &#34;I guess I have no choice. Would you like to accept my offer of help, Bonnie?&#34; She smiled at his question. She raised up her hand to his face and caressed it &#34;Very much so, my Clyde.&#34;]]&gt;</description>
      <content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3 id="song-by-ruelle-yume-tsumuyane">Song by Ruelle, Yume! TsumuYane</h3>

<p>CW: angst, drabble</p>

<p>“The last time I let you go, a lot of people died.”</p>

<p>The man in a fined suit strides over to the woman holding a blood-covered sword. His strides were purposeful even in a dark and hidden room. The memories of fire and screams tore through his mind and his found family got dragged into flames. Never again. “You&#39;re not walking out of this one, Ayane.”</p>



<p>The woman laughed, the sound became a sharp contrast to the man&#39;s heart. “Hm, shame. And here I thought you&#39;d enjoy my show.” She looked at the sword and pointed it towards his chest “How else was I supposed to get your attention? ...Mr. Tsukioka”</p>

<p>This wasn&#39;t what the man intended. He didn&#39;t assume that the woman he loves will transform into an assassin of greed.</p>

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<p><em>“Wait- you&#39;re a prince? And an assassin?! We&#39;ve been on three dates and you&#39;ve not bothered to tell me until then?” She asked eye-widened and her lover nodded in a shy state “Why?”</em></p>

<p><em>“It&#39;s very simple, my princess.” He approached her and held her hand which made the princess&#39; heart skip a beat. “I want you to be my Queen.”</em></p>

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<p><em>“What? Wait a minute, Ayane, you would ask me to betray my crown and my country?” The crowned prince looks with a worried face at the woman on her knees and tears on her cheeks. “Please! I can give you anything you want. Whatever you want right now, I can double it. You can have more land, fame, wealth, anything-”</em></p>

<p><em>”-No, your Highness!” Tsumugi said in a raised voice. The princess looked up. He went down and held her hand, already crying about how his lover is acting. “Please, don&#39;t bargain with me. I am to be king someday. We have ended our relationship a long time ago and my days of assassinating finished. I will not kill him as he is also my friend.” Tsumugi held on to Ayane&#39;s face as she sobs more.</em></p>

<p><em>They were both referring to Prince Chigasaki, the princess who will be marrying. They got arranged by her mother when they were young and Ayane didn&#39;t know about it until she was 18. “I accepted your past and present wholeheartedly.” Tsumugi presses his lips together and refuses “But I don&#39;t want you to get involved in something dangerous. Please understand.” He leaned to her for a hug and she responded. But then Ayane hears a chuckle and a light stroke on her hair.</em></p>

<p><em>“But honestly, Ayane, would you trust someone who turned their back on their home- their country for a long time- in secret for selfish gain?”</em></p>

<p><em>The princess immediately pushed him away. He has the smug look that he shows whenever he intends to kill or overpower his enemies. “What?”</em></p>

<p><em>“Who is to say they wouldn&#39;t betray you for someone better the first time they got?” He says as he remembers the time the prince showed him a picture that he didn&#39;t know. It was Prince Itaru and Ayane together in the secret part of the forest. Ayane stood up immediately and backed away “No, you&#39;re mistaken! He only-”</em></p>

<p><em>“He only what? Kissed you? Philandered with you? Do you think I wouldn&#39;t know why you killed him and some of his people? My darling, your reason for the murder is quite simple.” Tsumugi walked to his side counter and pulled something from the drawer. “The door is open, Ayane. It&#39;s either you leave or die. Your choice.” She looked at the dagger on his hand in fear. She looked for the doorknob and opened it, scurrying away.</em></p>

<p><em>The crowned prince sighed as he puts down the dagger after the princess left. “I&#39;m sorry, Ayane.”</em></p>

<p><em>After a few months, news spread throughout every kingdom. There are still no answers for the thousands of mysterious murders located different villages. It said that the killer named &#39;Bonnie&#39; is responsible but the police haven&#39;t found any evidence.</em></p>

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<p>“The kind of name sounds new when it comes from your mouth,” Tsumugi responded. She laughed again but he only smiled at her “And I say you&#39;ve got my attention very well, former princess. You&#39;ve done a job well done in reducing the population in my country.”</p>

<p>“You say it&#39;s your country, but you got banned from the kingdom. I didn&#39;t expect that you would guess the killer in a short time.” She scoffs “Well, it had to be done. Not only did I gain your attention, but I also helped you with your problem.” Ayane responded.</p>

<p>Tsumugi shifted the sword away and went near the woman. Ayane can feel his breath when she looked at him and felt her hair tucked behind the ear. She blushes at the action and he laughed the way his lover had become savage but still a little soft for him “I guess I have no choice. Would you like to accept my offer of help, <em>Bonnie</em>?” She smiled at his question. She raised up her hand to his face and caressed it “Very much so, <em>my Clyde</em>.”</p>
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      <pubDate>Sat, 04 Dec 2021 08:46:38 +0000</pubDate>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[Song by Taeyeon (Rain), Yume! Mammon &amp; Val&#xA;CW: fluff&#xA;&#xA;It&#39;s been a while since it rained in Devildom, and when it rains, reading a book would be refreshing or just doing homework. But the thing is, I&#39;m too lazy to do homework. &#xA;&#xA;!--more--&#xA;&#xA;So I went out to meet Satan at the library to fetch something good to read, and as usual, he recommended a lot. I only picked one and was about to read when a loud bang echoed through the whole peaceful library. We looked at who created the noise and it was no other than my boyfriend.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Oi, oi! So here&#39;s where ya are! Been lookin&#39; for ya for ages and why are ya with him!&#34; He shouted as he marched and slammed his hands on the sides of the couch where I&#39;m sitting. &#34;She was only reading a book, Mammon. It&#39;s not like I was flirting with her or something.&#34; Satan said while flipping the page. &#34;Why were you looking for me, Mammon?&#34; I asked while looking at his eyes full of frustration &#34;Ya said we&#39;re gonna have a date today, right? Well, let&#39;s go now!&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;But it&#39;s raining badly outside. It&#39;s hard to go on a date in that weather.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Aaah! Don&#39;t mind that! We are gettin&#39; outta here whether it&#39;s rainin&#39; or not. I also got some extra cash again from bettin&#39; on Magic: The Gate!&#34; He said as he dragged me out of the library. &#34;Wait Mammo-&#34; I was about to respond he turned around in abrupt then held my shoulders tightly.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Look, Val. I know I&#39;ve been out a lot and you&#39;ve been busy with school, but just this once, let me kidnap for ya for a date in the rain, okay? We&#39;ll probably ask some dude from a restaurant for some meals and towels.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;God why is he so cute&#xA;&#xA;I felt the blood rush through my cheeks and kissed him &#34;Sure! Of course! Let&#39;s go right now!&#34; Smiling, he drags me out of the House of Lamentation and runs through the rain, not bothering that we both intended to leave the umbrellas near the entrance.]]&gt;</description>
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<p>CW: fluff</p>

<p>It&#39;s been a while since it rained in Devildom, and when it rains, reading a book would be refreshing or just doing homework. But the thing is, I&#39;m too lazy to do homework.</p>



<p>So I went out to meet Satan at the library to fetch something good to read, and as usual, he recommended a lot. I only picked one and was about to read when a loud bang echoed through the whole peaceful library. We looked at who created the noise and it was no other than my boyfriend.</p>

<p>“Oi, oi! So here&#39;s where ya are! Been lookin&#39; for ya for ages and why are ya with him!” He shouted as he marched and slammed his hands on the sides of the couch where I&#39;m sitting. “She was only reading a book, Mammon. It&#39;s not like I was flirting with her or something.” Satan said while flipping the page. “Why were you looking for me, Mammon?” I asked while looking at his eyes full of frustration “Ya said we&#39;re gonna have a date today, right? Well, let&#39;s go now!”</p>

<p>“But it&#39;s raining badly outside. It&#39;s hard to go on a date in that weather.”</p>

<p>“Aaah! Don&#39;t mind that! We are gettin&#39; outta here whether it&#39;s rainin&#39; or not. I also got some extra cash again from bettin&#39; on Magic: The Gate!” He said as he dragged me out of the library. “Wait Mammo-” I was about to respond he turned around in abrupt then held my shoulders tightly.</p>

<p>“Look, Val. I know I&#39;ve been out a lot and you&#39;ve been busy with school, but just this once, let me kidnap for ya for a date in the rain, okay? We&#39;ll probably ask some dude from a restaurant for some meals and towels.”</p>

<p>God why is he so cute</p>

<p>I felt the blood rush through my cheeks and kissed him “Sure! Of course! Let&#39;s go right now!” Smiling, he drags me out of the House of Lamentation and runs through the rain, not bothering that we both intended to leave the umbrellas near the entrance.</p>
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      <pubDate>Fri, 03 Dec 2021 09:11:22 +0000</pubDate>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[Song by The Orion Experience (The Queen of White Lies), Yume! AyaHiso&#xA;CW: drabble, fluff&#xA;&#xA;Do you what&#39;s frustrating me lately? The way my wife tells me a lie and I keep falling for it every time. Ever since we got married, Ayane would always lie when I ask her about little things. She&#39;s also not the type to tell me immediately until I found out. The members weren&#39;t also used to me being slow-witted.&#xA;&#xA;!--more--&#xA;&#xA;One time, I&#39;d ask where the other strawberry marshmallows were and she answered it was in the refrigerator. I found out there were none and I asked her about it and said the cat ate it. I bummed about that, but then when I cuddled next to her she smelled awfully familiar. She then admitted she ate it because it&#39;s her new favorite.&#xA;&#xA;Another time was when I found penpen in the sink which was really odd. She was rummaging through her room at that time so I asked and she answered &#34;Oh, our cat scratched and dirtied penpen at 4 am, I was afraid you&#39;d get upset, so I put it in the sink to wash it off.&#34; I was thinking, why isn&#39;t she using the washing machine then? When I pulled penpen out, something ripped. It was stuck on the sink all along, I turned around to tell her but I saw a similar penpen and the upset feeling immediately faded away &#34;Sorry, I lied. I was looking for the other penpen I bought before and penpen&#39;s already worn out. I hope you can forgive me.&#34; She said and looked guilty. I don&#39;t even blame her and I can&#39;t, but at least I got another fluffy plushie.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;You should be making sure that she&#39;s up to something.&#34; Tasuku said after I told her about what&#39;s happening in the apartment. Homare sipped his tea and shook his head in disbelief &#34;My word, that would be troublesome. Our dear Ayane is trying her best to make up for the mistakes.&#34; I also agreed with him for once. Azuma raised his finger up and we all looked at him &#34;How about asking her if she truly loves you? She can&#39;t lie about that.&#34;&#xA; &#xA;And so I did.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Aya.&#34;&#xA;&#34;Mm?&#34; She responded while going through her company&#39;s paperwork.&#xA;I sat beside her on the couch and held her hand &#34;Do you love me?&#34;&#xA;She stopped moving. Was she doubting? &#34;No.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;What?&#xA;&#xA;I looked at her eyes to see if they were true, but she immediately smiled and hugged me. &#34;I was kidding! Of course, I love you! Do you think I married you for nothing?&#34; I smiled in the embrace, teary-eyed, and hugged her back. &#34;I love you so much. I don&#39;t think I can handle it if someone leaves me. If you left me.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Even if I&#39;m annoying?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;Can&#39;t help it. I&#39;m going to deal with you being annoying forever anyway, but I love you for that so don&#39;t worry.&#34;]]&gt;</description>
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<p>CW: drabble, fluff</p>

<p>Do you what&#39;s frustrating me lately? The way my wife tells me a lie and I keep falling for it every time. Ever since we got married, Ayane would always lie when I ask her about little things. She&#39;s also not the type to tell me immediately until I found out. The members weren&#39;t also used to me being slow-witted.</p>



<p>One time, I&#39;d ask where the other strawberry marshmallows were and she answered it was in the refrigerator. I found out there were none and I asked her about it and said the cat ate it. I bummed about that, but then when I cuddled next to her she smelled awfully familiar. She then admitted she ate it because it&#39;s her new favorite.</p>

<p>Another time was when I found penpen in the sink which was really odd. She was rummaging through her room at that time so I asked and she answered <em>“Oh, our cat scratched and dirtied penpen at 4 am, I was afraid you&#39;d get upset, so I put it in the sink to wash it off.”</em> I was thinking, why isn&#39;t she using the washing machine then? When I pulled penpen out, something ripped. It was stuck on the sink all along, I turned around to tell her but I saw a similar penpen and the upset feeling immediately faded away <em>“Sorry, I lied. I was looking for the other penpen I bought before and penpen&#39;s already worn out. I hope you can forgive me.”</em> She said and looked guilty. I don&#39;t even blame her and I can&#39;t, but at least I got another fluffy plushie.</p>

<p><em>“You should be making sure that she&#39;s up to something.” Tasuku said after I told her about what&#39;s happening in the apartment. Homare sipped his tea and shook his head in disbelief “My word, that would be troublesome. Our dear Ayane is trying her best to make up for the mistakes.” I also agreed with him for once. Azuma raised his finger up and we all looked at him “How about asking her if she truly loves you? She can&#39;t lie about that.”</em></p>

<p>And so I did.</p>

<p>“Aya.”
“Mm?” She responded while going through her company&#39;s paperwork.
I sat beside her on the couch and held her hand “Do you love me?”
She stopped moving. Was she doubting? “No.”</p>

<p>What?</p>

<p>I looked at her eyes to see if they were true, but she immediately smiled and hugged me. “I was kidding! Of course, I love you! Do you think I married you for nothing?” I smiled in the embrace, teary-eyed, and hugged her back. “I love you so much. I don&#39;t think I can handle it if someone leaves me. <em>If you left me.</em>“</p>

<p>“Even if I&#39;m annoying?”</p>

<p>“Can&#39;t help it. I&#39;m going to deal with you being annoying forever anyway, but I love you for that so don&#39;t worry.”</p>
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      <pubDate>Thu, 02 Dec 2021 09:03:58 +0000</pubDate>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[Song by Lund, A3! Yuki Rurikawa&#xA;CW: Deprecation, drabble&#xA;&#xA;The machine hums near my hands, the needle punching holes in the cloth in the fastest way until the whole thing stitched, the imaginary music in my head as I finish the costume for the next play. For all I know, this is my hobby and passion from the start, but I feel like something&#39;s missing. It always has been, isn&#39;t it? What was I even doing before I started sewing?&#xA;&#xA;&#34;You look like a girl!&#34;&#xA;&#34;Yuki is a freak! Don&#39;t get involved with him!&#34;&#xA;&#34;You&#39;re a guy, right? Why are you wearing a dress?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;Stop. I don&#39;t want to go back to that again. If only I stayed with him and didn&#39;t leave without saying goodbye, then I guess I wouldn&#39;t have had those experiences.&#xA;&#xA;]]&gt;</description>
      <content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3 id="song-by-lund-a3-yuki-rurikawa">Song by Lund, A3! Yuki Rurikawa</h3>

<p>CW: Deprecation, drabble</p>

<p>The machine hums near my hands, the needle punching holes in the cloth in the fastest way until the whole thing stitched, the imaginary music in my head as I finish the costume for the next play. For all I know, this is my hobby and passion from the start, but I feel like something&#39;s missing. It always has been, isn&#39;t it? What was I even doing before I started sewing?</p>

<p><em>“You look like a girl!”</em>
<em>“Yuki is a freak! Don&#39;t get involved with him!”</em>
<em>“You&#39;re a guy, right? Why are you wearing a dress?”</em></p>

<p>Stop. I don&#39;t want to go back to that again. If only I stayed with him and didn&#39;t leave without saying goodbye, then I guess I wouldn&#39;t have had those experiences.</p>
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      <pubDate>Thu, 02 Dec 2021 08:21:26 +0000</pubDate>
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      <title>Break My Heart Again</title>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[A3! BL: Chikage Utsuki × Itaru Chigasaki&#xA;CW: OOC (maybe), act 8 spoilers, angst&#xA;&#xA;Itaru and Chikage kept their intimate relationship without the other members know. They privately talked about what happened when Chikage and Izumi went missing, about how Itaru was actually going to call the police and now Chikage has been out for a month and Itaru grew extremely worried again that causes him to reduce his focus on gaming.&#xA;!--more--&#xA;&#xA;PART I&#xA;&#xA;Hard keyboard typing can be heard throughout the room at 3 AM as Itaru was trying to finish off the final boss in the pre-released game. He drank his coffee while still performing the combos in one hand and returned it beside his other desk. A few minutes later, he finally won the battle and immediately slumped back on his gaming chair, he gazes on his phone beside the monitor with a discontented sigh escaping from his lips. &#xA;&#xA;It&#39;s been a while since he and Chikage slept beside each other. Itaru knew that his senpai has been gone out of the dorm for a month and a half, and he knows it&#39;s not something that he usually does, unlike his late or early morning arrivals. Ever since they&#39;ve been together, he still can&#39;t help but think about his senpai&#39;s other work. Although Chikage didn&#39;t say anything specifically, Itaru was too clever to notice but it wasn&#39;t enough and he wasn&#39;t sure if his senpai&#39;s really doing anything shady or something like he did in Zafra.&#xA;&#xA;Itaru leaned forward to get his phone and tried to dial Chikage once more, he&#39;s been doing this for the past month and Itaru might think he&#39;ll go insane for worrying about him. &#34;Senpai uhh good morning, I know you come home at this time but I&#39;m sure you&#39;re still busy..&#34; Itaru chuckled sadly &#34;Why else would you ignore me?&#34; He frowned at the sudden question with the thought he might be overthinking &#34;...or is this how you ask for some space?&#34;&#xA;&#xA;&#34;I&#39;m fine, Chigasaki.&#34;&#xA;&#xA;Itaru bolted out of his chair when he heard his voice, he looked at the screen and put the phone back on his ear again &#34;What the hell were you doing, Senpai? You didn&#39;t say anything about not going home for a month and a half.&#34; He wanted to tell him that he didn&#39;t believe when Chikage said he&#39;s fine. He wanted to tell him to come home to him and in hopes, they&#39;d still be together and everything&#39;s still going to be fine but he wanted to stay calm and lessen the burden he felt with his senpai. &#34;...Anything that&#39;s safe that&#39;s for sure. You don&#39;t have to worry about me. It&#39;s just that there&#39;s a pile of work right now and I can&#39;t go on back and forth so I&#39;m staying in another place.&#34; Chikage replied in a tired tone.&#xA;&#xA;&#34;You sure it&#39;s anything that&#39;s safe?&#34; Itaru questioned and he heard a soft chuckle at the other line &#34;Yes, it&#39;s very safe so don&#39;t worry.&#34; He wanted to say he misses him very much as it&#39;s the first time in a while they talked again but didn&#39;t since Chikage might be in the middle of something &#34;I&#39;m glad to know that you&#39;re okay. Don&#39;t do any stupid shit, alright? I love you.. Senpai.&#34; he slightly blushed when he said the last few words and he heard Chikage clear his throat &#34;Alright, I&#39;ll see you later.&#34; he then hangs up and Itaru didn&#39;t hear him say those words again which he slumped his shoulders and silently grumbled &#34;Such an unromantic senpai.&#34;&#xA;]]&gt;</description>
      <content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3 id="a3-bl-chikage-utsuki-itaru-chigasaki">A3! BL: Chikage Utsuki × Itaru Chigasaki</h3>

<p>CW: OOC (maybe), act 8 spoilers, angst</p>

<p>Itaru and Chikage kept their intimate relationship without the other members know. They privately talked about what happened when Chikage and Izumi went missing, about how Itaru was actually going to call the police and now Chikage has been out for a month and Itaru grew extremely worried again that causes him to reduce his focus on gaming.
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<p><strong>PART I</strong></p>

<p>Hard keyboard typing can be heard throughout the room at 3 AM as Itaru was trying to finish off the final boss in the pre-released game. He drank his coffee while still performing the combos in one hand and returned it beside his other desk. A few minutes later, he finally won the battle and immediately slumped back on his gaming chair, he gazes on his phone beside the monitor with a discontented sigh escaping from his lips.</p>

<p>It&#39;s been a while since he and Chikage slept beside each other. Itaru knew that his senpai has been gone out of the dorm for a month and a half, and he knows it&#39;s not something that he usually does, unlike his late or early morning arrivals. Ever since they&#39;ve been together, he still can&#39;t help but think about his senpai&#39;s other work. Although Chikage didn&#39;t say anything specifically, Itaru was too clever to notice but it wasn&#39;t enough and he wasn&#39;t sure if his senpai&#39;s really doing anything shady or something like he did in Zafra.</p>

<p>Itaru leaned forward to get his phone and tried to dial Chikage once more, he&#39;s been doing this for the past month and Itaru might think he&#39;ll go insane for worrying about him. “Senpai uhh good morning, I know you come home at this time but I&#39;m sure you&#39;re still busy..” Itaru chuckled sadly “Why else would you ignore me?” He frowned at the sudden question with the thought he might be overthinking “...or is this how you ask for some space?”</p>

<p>“I&#39;m fine, Chigasaki.”</p>

<p>Itaru bolted out of his chair when he heard his voice, he looked at the screen and put the phone back on his ear again “What the hell were you doing, Senpai? You didn&#39;t say anything about not going home for a month and a half.” He wanted to tell him that he didn&#39;t believe when Chikage said he&#39;s fine. He wanted to tell him to come home to him and in hopes, they&#39;d still be together and everything&#39;s still going to be fine but he wanted to stay calm and lessen the burden he felt with his senpai. “...Anything that&#39;s safe that&#39;s for sure. You don&#39;t have to worry about me. It&#39;s just that there&#39;s a pile of work right now and I can&#39;t go on back and forth so I&#39;m staying in another place.” Chikage replied in a tired tone.</p>

<p>“You sure it&#39;s anything that&#39;s safe?” Itaru questioned and he heard a soft chuckle at the other line “Yes, it&#39;s very safe so don&#39;t worry.” He wanted to say he misses him very much as it&#39;s the first time in a while they talked again but didn&#39;t since Chikage might be in the middle of something “I&#39;m glad to know that you&#39;re okay. Don&#39;t do any stupid shit, alright? I love you.. Senpai.” he slightly blushed when he said the last few words and he heard Chikage clear his throat “Alright, I&#39;ll see you later.” he then hangs up and Itaru didn&#39;t hear him say those words again which he slumped his shoulders and silently grumbled “Such an unromantic senpai.”</p>
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